My ex-colleague was having dinner with my department yesterday night. I had recently just added him to Facebook a few days before. About halfway he suddenly remarked:
“Oh hey Edward, your Facebook is all Japanese stuff man!”
“You’re doing work based on your hobbies and passion [football + Japanese], that’s amazing.”
I was quite engrossed in reading a news article on my phone, and didn’t manage to reply him. I just simply nodded silently. But his comments are worth pondering.
All my life, I have known only one way to live: Follow your interests, follow your passions. Enjoy doing what you love, and love doing what you enjoy. I have been insulted multiple times by random people for playing too much videogames, for studying Japanese just so I can consume Japanese comics and animation, and for following a “worthless sport” like pro wrestling.
And in the end, guess what? I’m still a normal, ordinary citizen. I have a job. I go out with friends and family once in awhile. I like potatoes. The only tiny difference is that I _enjoy_ my life. I’m still single after six years but that’s fine. I have to work tiring night shifts but that’s fine, I get to watch my favourite sport as part of my job.
This feels like a build-up to another emo post about the rhetorics of “loving yourself”, so I’ll just stop. But allow me to finally reply my friend here (even though he’ll never read it):
I enjoy Japanese stuff because that is me, and I am happy at being uniquely Edward. What are you happy about yourself? What do you enjoy?