I told myself to stop blogging about my Melty Blood escapades more than a year ago but I guess the only way for me to fully vent out my frustrations is to type it all out.
Lately, I have been losing frequently and very badly at the arcade. I really miss the days when I first started learning Melty in mid-2010. Those were the times where I was absolutely fearless about losing. I was desperate to get as much experience as I could by playing as many times as possible. If I lost a match, I could attribute it to beginner’s nerves (or dropped combos), or lack of match-up knowledge when fighting a completely new character. And during the rare moments when I actually won, I’d really cherish the victory because it felt that I had fought tooth-and-nail to carve out that win.
When you have been playing the game for almost three years, on a religiously weekly basis, there comes a certain expectation. The expectation that after playing for so long, you should be able to consistently win more matches than usual. But I cannot maintain that expectation, and proceed to get horrible losing streaks of 22 losses and 2 wins. That’s a win rate of less than 10 percent. Absolutely abysmal and disappointing.
Of course I am mad as hell, and the only possible way that I can rectify this is to just play the game every single day. If I cannot play an online match, then at the very least I have to grind out training at home.
The next time I lose, I can lose with no regrets because I have already done all the training I could possibly do. I am so sick and tired of feeling angry.